"I wish I was at the beach, too" Smoothie

One of my least favorite things in the world is to be cold. I hate it. I usually cope with the winter weather of the Northeast well enough through December and January because I find peace, beauty, and romance in the early snowfalls around the holidays. I also appreciate the giddiness that sledding and playing in the snow creates for my children so I tolerate it. February comes and I still try to be a good sport about the freezing cold winds and (what feel like) daily snow squalls. 

By this point in the season, I'm really just done. I'm done with wearing eight layers every time I leave the house. I'm done with closed windows and stuffy air. I'm done with coming up with indoor activities for the kids. I'm ready to get outside, see some sunshine, and warm up already!

Clearly many of my friends and family feel the same way because they are all taking tropical beach vacations to escape the deep freeze. My colleague is soaking up the sun in Hawaii, my parents are cruising around Mexico, and my in-laws are on a plane to Aruba as I type. I could be jealous of them all (OK, I secretly am...), or I can dig deep and find a way to bring some beach-y comfort to the eternal winter wonderland that is Upstate NY. 

So, that's what I did. 

Each morning this week I've been sipping one of these delicious pina colada like smoothies and pretending really hard that I've got sand between my toes, sun shining on my face, and gentle waves creating a musical backdrop for my morning.

Disadvantage to this approach? Reality hits pretty hard the second I walk out the door. Advantage? A few more months to get bathing suit ready. Speaking of bathing suits, did I mention this delicious and filling smoothie adds up to just 4 Weight Watchers points plus?? Not a bad way to start your morning...

The Recipe

Directions

Combine all ingredients in a blender and puree. No need to add ice or anything extra, it will have a perfect consistency from the frozen pineapple. I have been using a very low power, but completely adequate Hamilton Beach single serve blender that is perfect for on the go.

Enjoy!

Kitchen Tips

Food is one of my favorite things in the world. I spend hours each day thinking about food. I think about breakfast as soon as I wake up. I carefully plan what I'm going to eat at work. I think about what to cook my family for dinner. I read Pinterest and Bon Appetit magazine looking for new recipes. It's an obsession.

Because I love food so much, the idea of wasting food drives me crazy. I hate when a recipe calls for just part of something because it raises the likelihood that the other part will end up in the trash. I can't think of any product this happens to more often than tomato paste! The stuff is great to thicken sauce or chili, but you rarely need more than 1-2 Tbsp. So what happens to the rest?

Do you just admit that you don't need it and throw it away? Do you put it in the fridge and pretend you're going to use it only to find it shoved in the back growing mold three weeks later? If either of these scenes sound familiar, this post is for you!

I can't remember where I originally saw this tip, but it's a great one! After you open a can of tomato paste prevent the rest from going to waste by following these simple steps...

1. Use a tablespoon to measure out level scoops of tomato paste.
2. Place tomato paste on a cookie sheet lined with wax paper.
3. Put the cookie sheet in the freezer for at least one hour until solid
4. Remove the tomato paste scoops from the cookie sheet and store in a bag or freezer safe container.

After following these simple steps you'll save yourself from the guilt of throwing away your unused tomato paste AND have pre-measured portions of tomato paste at arm's length the next time you need it. Total win-win situation!

Weight Watchers and Real Food

For the record, I was awake for 10 whole minutes today before a kid woke up. I didn't even move, I just laid there listening to the silence. Somehow, the older one still sensed that I was awake. She shuffled into the room and I pulled back the covers for her without saying anything. Miraculously, she snuggled between daddy and I and WENT BACK TO SLEEP.

I enjoyed the snuggle for a few minutes before slipping out of bed to try for that forbidden peaceful cup of coffee again. Just as I was adding the milk I heard the baby yelling out for a "baba". She's 15 months old so I really need to wean her off of it...but today is not that day. Giving her a bottle bought me ten whole minutes of quiet. Sweet, blissful quiet with nothing to do other than sip my HOT coffee and read Pinterest. When she finished the bottle we just snuggled and were silly together for a half hour while everyone else slept. These are the moments we just don't get enough of. Today is going to be a good day.

Low natural lighting in the kitchen made these shots a little fuzzy, but I love them anyway

I thought I'd take a few minutes this morning to share some advice about following Weight Watchers and sticking to an unprocessed, real food diet. A little over a year ago I joined WW for the first time. As I had an exclusively breastfeeding newborn I was allotted 46 points plus per day. I have to be honest, between the diet and breastfeeding I was dropping weight like crazy even eating oreos and Dunkin Donuts wake-up wraps on a daily basis. I went from post-baby weight to pre-baby weight in about a month and from post-baby weight to my lowest adult weight since I was in college in less than 6 months.

Then, the seasons started to change and the stress of selling a house, building a house, the holidays, and moving set in. I wasn't get fresh food from the Farmer's Market. My Weight Watchers subscription was cancelled. I was not going to the gym. The baby was nursing less. I was eating more processed foods. Nearly every successfully lost pound crept back on.

A year after my initial success I decided to start back up again. As I no longer have gads of points each day I need to focus a lot more on choosing "good" foods. Foods that are high in nutrients, satisfying, and that I "feel good" about eating. Here are my tips on combining a typical lower point (26) Weight Watcher's plan with real food ideas:

1. Real the labels! A trap a lot people following WW fall into is buying everything low fat or fat free because the point calculation is lower. This is a horrible idea. To save yourself a few points you will be filling your body with chemicals, additives, and fillers. You can find *some* reduced fat products that are only made with real ingredients (most dairy products), but you need to be extremely discerning and real your labels.
2. Plan ahead. If you have kids, or a job, or both you need to have your meals planned out or you will find yourself struggling to stay on the plan. Check back later this week for some easy meal plans to get through the week days.
3. Always have fruits and veggies on hand. Making healthy foods available will make you much more likely to eat them. For busy times of the day, having your produce prepped ahead of time is key - cut melon, rinsed grapes, easy to peel clementines, bananas, rinsed salad greens, sliced peppers, celery sticks, cherry tomatoes. For calmer times I find having a fruit I need to "work on" for a snack makes it more satisfying - grapefruit, cherries, kiwi.
4. Care about the food, not the diet. If you spend your time thinking about how safe and whole the foods you are eating are instead of calculating points on all the foods you know you shouldn't have, you will naturally make good choices! If you read the ingredient label on that box of Cheez-its you won't care that you can get away with 1/2 a serving for 3 points. You'll realize there are so many things in there that you don't want in your body it will be easy to chose a tablespoon of fresh ground almond butter and banana slices instead.
5. Splurge for real. Instead of planning myself a mini splurge every day (one cookie, a handful of chocolate chips, etc) which just ended up reintroducing all the "bad stuff" back into my system I plan one real splurge on a high quality item - a good piece of dark chocolate (not Hershey kisses), a handmade baked good (not Dunkin Donuts), a chunk of good full fat cheese (never eat the fat free stuff!), a few slices of good quality bacon (not turkey bacon), etc. 

Happy Sunday and Happy Eating!

Baked Pancake Bites (WW friendly)

Weekends are not the same once you have kids. You don't get to sleep in. You don't get to wake up and gaze lovingly at your partner thinking about how great life is. You don't get to have a peaceful cup of coffee while you catch up on the news. You don't get to take a long, hot shower.

Nope, none of that. The reality of weekends with kids looks like this: You roll over at 6:15 and gaze at the clock amazed that no one has woken you up yet with nightmares, coughing fits, or vomit. You contemplate if you should stay in bed and try to catch a few more precious minutes of sleep or sneak out to the kitchen to make a cup of coffee. Before the 30 seconds it would take for your groggy brain to make that decision passes you hear..."Mommy? Mommy? Mooooooommy?!" You reluctantly get up and drag her into bed with you. You cling to the unrealistic hope that she might go back to sleep. After ten rounds of, "Is it morning yet?" You admit defeat and concede that it is indeed morning. Still fooling yourself, you think it might be possible to get up with kid number one and have a cup of coffee before kid number two wakes up. Just as the Keurig drips the last drop into your cup you hear it. Kid two is up because kid one is filling her crib with pillows to make a "fort"...

This scenario is pretty much what my house looks like every Saturday morning...sleepy parents trying (unsuccessfully) to match the insane enthusiasm of a preschooler and toddler excited at the prospect of a full two days at home with mommy and daddy. After playing along with whatever crazy scheme the nearly five year old comes up with for about thirty minutes it is inevitable that the following phrase will be uttered, "Mommy, I'm hungry!"

Anyone who routinely cooks for children knows that this is a dangerous time. Eggs might have been awesome yesterday, but today they will carpet the floor. The a
ct of pouring a bowl of Joe-Os might bring cheers whereas an hour long effort on stuffed French toast might be met with groans and wails of, "That's disgusting!" 

Today, I took a chance. My husband and older daughter have been into Nutella recently so I offered to make Nutella pancakes. They accepted the concept. The challenge was on.

Baked Pancake Bites with Nutella

As I usually do when I'm looking to try something new, I did a quick google search. I turned up this recipe for pancake balls and Nutella. I tweaked it and got to work. I had my doubts as the batter was very thin, but I persevered through the rest of the steps. 

As they were baking our kitchen was filled with a lovely sweet, spicy aroma. My daughter was enticed into the kitchen and started circling the oven waiting for them to come out. I held my breath as I popped them out of the pan and placed them on the table. To my surprise and delight everyone in the house loved them! My daughter even finished the leftovers for a snack later in the day and asked for more. I will definitely be making these again soon.

Added bonus, I played with the original recipe to make it healthier and these worked out to a very reasonable 1 point plus per muffin. I ate 5 mini muffins and a heaping serving of fruit salad for a very satisfying breakfast.

Ingredients

1 cup whole milk

1 egg

1 tbsp coconut oil, melted

1 tsp vanilla extract

1 cup all purpose, unbleached flour

2 tbsp baking powder

2 tbsp raw sugar

1/4 tsp salt

1/4 tsp nutmeg

1/2 tsp cinnamon

2 tbsp nutella

Directions

1. Preheat oven to 375 and use cooking spray (or paper liners) to coat wells of a 24 mini muffin tin.
2. In the bowl of a stand mixer combine milk, egg, coconut oil, and vanilla extract until well blended.
3. Whisk together all dry ingredients in a separate bowl.
4. Add the dry ingredients to the wet ingredients and blend very well (The batter will be thin!).
5. Pour the batter into the muffin wells (I poured the batter from a large measuring cup to make this step easier). You might have a little excess batter
6. Put the Nutella into a small ziploc baggie and snip the corner. Drizzle a small ribbon of chocolate into each muffin.
7. Bake for 12-15 minutes. 
8. Let cool slightly and enjoy!

*May be served with maple syrup for dipping, but totally unnecessary!

**Try these out with different fillings - jam, banana slices, fresh berries, bacon, sausage, etc!

Iced Coffee Cupcakes

No, I haven't given up on Weight Watchers already. It just so happens that January is an incredibly busy month for birthdays among my family, friends, and coworkers. Diet or no diet, cupcakes are kinda my thing when it comes to celebrating someone's birth. Don't worry, I ate light all day yesterday so I could test out the frosting and make sure I had the perfect blend of flavors:-)

The cupcakes I'm blogging today are for someone very special at my practice -  my office manager and good friend. She has really been my lifeline since I joined the group just over two years ago. There have been quite a few bumps along the way for me and she has been on top of them all helping me get in touch with the right people and getting answers in a timely manner. She's also a huge reason my practice has built so quickly - she actively works the phones to recruit patients to the office and then presents a happy, smiling face at the desk that welcomes families and makes them feel at home. Aside from business, I also genuinely really like her personally. She's a great mom to her own "big kids" and is always offering me encouragement through the rough times with my monsters. In short, she's pretty great. And really, making this fabulous lady a few cupcakes doesn't even begin to thank her for all she does. But I hope it's a start.

So without further ado, I present a cupcake many Pinterest articles came together to create...I call them Dunkin' Donut Iced Coffee Cupcakes.

My inspiration was my friend's daily morning brew from DD. I blended elements from a few different recipes and modeled the final "look" after two or three different images I came across when searching for "coffee cupcakes" on Pinterest. I assure you, they really are as good as they look.

If you want to try making your own, I got the cake recipe from here. I followed it exactly as written using her modifications in red. The frosting was my own recipe that you will find below. The "sprinkles" are actually just a dusting of organic raw sugar from Trader Joe's. I tried to mimic the DD look by using pink cupcake wrappers and garnishing with actual straws from the restaurant.

Milk and Coffee Buttercream Frosting

2 1/2 sticks of butter, at room temperature

3 cups of confectioner's sugar

1 tsp vanilla extract

1 tbsp whole milk

1 tbsp hot water + 2 tsp instant espresso (dissolve coffee in water)

1. Beat butter on medium speed in the bowl of a stand mixer until very soft and "white" in appearance.
2. Add 2 cups (240g)* confectioner's sugar, vanilla extract, and milk to the mixer and beat for at least two minutes until smooth and thick.
3. Remove 1 1/2 cups frosting from the mixing bowl and set aside.
4. Add 1 cup (120g) confectioner's sugar and the espresso/water mixture to the mixer bowl and beat for at least 2 minutes.
5. Decorate cupcakes by piping large circle of coffee buttercream first, then smaller circle of "milk" buttercream. Sprinkle with sugar and top with straw (if desired).

*I use a small food scale to measure the sugar and get more precision in my recipes.

Pumpkin Smoothie

After making the last recipe I posted (Baked Pumpkin Cranberry Oatmeal) I was left with half a can of organic pumpkin puree. I really didn't feel like baking again - busy week at work and my hands have been so dry that I didn't want to have a lot of dishes to wash - so the container has sat in the fridge all week.

This morning after taking my first group exercise class in probably over a year at the gym I finally had an inspiration for that sad little container of pumpkin. I decided to make myself a replenishing smoothie alongside my nutrient packed breakfast (a kale, salsa, and brown rice omelette with a bowl of clementine segments). To my complete and utter surprise, my used-to-be-a-great-eater-but-now-is-extremely-picky 4 1/2 year old loved it too! After letting her try a sip, I was trying to set up a photo, but she decided I was taking too long and climbed up onto the table to drink some more. I decided this photo was far cuter than the solo smoothie.

Maple Pumpkin Smoothie
makes 1 serving - 3 points plus

1/2 frozen banana
1/3 cup plain, lowfat organic yogurt
1/2 cup organic pumpkin puree
1/4 tsp pumpkin pie spice
1 tbsp pure maple syrup

1. Put the frozen banana in the blender and let rest for at least 5 minutes
2. Add remaining ingredients and blend until smooth
3. Enjoy as a snack or with your breakfast

Baked Pumpkin Cranberry Oatmeal To Go

I spent a large portion of last year really focusing in on nutrition and trying to figure out the best things for my family to be eating. I lost a lot of weight in the first half of the year and was feeling pretty good about all of the fresh, local foods we were eating. Then, we got an offer on our house and my whole world turned upside down.

We only had a month to get our entire house packed and to find a place to live. I was also planning bear's first birthday party which is always extremely time consuming for me. In addition, we were going to Disney World and had to pack and plan for that. Somehow we made it through, but then we came home and we were living in a tiny apartment. We had to make all the arrangements and preparations for Christmas in our limited space. Finally we made our second move into my parent's house between Christmas and the New Year.

After the house sold all of the stress and craziness was just too much. I wanted to stick with everything I had been working towards, but was just so overwhelmed. I started hitting up drive-thrus again, we ordered takeout multiple times per week, and I was constantly making unhealthy food choices for myself at work. And (not surprising) I started to feel horrible. Mentally, I was disappointed in myself. Physically, my body was feeling uncomfortable - stomachaches, acid reflux, gastritis (probably an ulcer too), skin breakouts, and a generalized feeling of heaviness. 

Now that we are moved and settled (for at least the next 5 months anyway) I'm really motivated to get back on the wagon. I've rejoined Weight Watchers. I'm making a plan to get back to the gym at least three days per week. I'm feeling really optimistic and excited to go forward. 

All that said, It's very easy for me to let my mommy obligations get in the way of a healthier, happier lifestyle for myself. I know I need to have a plan or I won't succeed. The first part of this plan for me is not having to think about breakfast. Each week I am going to make something over the weekend that has me set for success each morning. Something easy that doesn't require any fussing over. Which brings me to my first recipe share of the New Year...

Baked Pumpkin Cranberry Oatmeal To Go

Based on the recipe for baked oatmeal found here

Yields: 12 muffins at 4 points plus each

2 eggs

1/4 cup pure maple syrup

1 tsp baking soda

1 tsp vanilla extract

1/4 cup melted butter

1 apple, grated

1 1/4 cup 1% milk

3 cups rolled oats

1 tsp cinnamon

1 cup fresh cranberries

1/2 cup canned pumpkin puree

1. Preheat oven to 375 and grease muffin tin with non-stick spray.
2. Mix first 7 ingredients together with a mixer.
3. Add last four ingredients and mix by hand until well blended. The mixture will be very loose and wet still. Allow to rest in the mixing bowl for at least 30 minutes.
4. Divide evenly between muffin wells and bake for 25-30 minutes until set.
5. Can eat hot or freeze* for later use. Store at room temperature for 3 days, in the fridge for 7 days, or in the freezer for one month.

They are delicious at room temp, but I prefer to re-warm them in the oven at 350 for five minutes when I have time.
*If frozen, reheat by setting oven to 350, wrapping muffin in foil and baking for 5 minutes. Turn off oven and leave muffin in for 10 minutes longer.

Welcome 2014

2013 was a good year. There were many moments of stress and frustration, but many, many more moments of laughter, silliness, excitement, and joy. Here is my rundown of our past year...

• Our baby bear grew from a newborn to an infant to a monster toddler
• Our bug developed into an incredible, bright, insightful and stubborn "big kid"
• My sister joined the mommy club and we welcomed my sweet, sweet nephew to the family in September
• I ran my first 5K...and it was a mud run!
• I got to sate my love of party planning with a Brave 4th Birthday Party, a Dalmatian Baby Shower, and an "If you Give a Mouse a Cookie" 1st Birthday Party (still to be blogged...)
• We put our house on the market and lived in a strange state of limbo with open houses and showings for almost 6 months
• We moved...and moved...and moved! From our house, to an apartment, to my parent's house in just 3 months
• Neither of my kids like to sleep so I think I might have had a full, uninterrupted night of sleep half a dozen times (not exaggerating) in 2013
• We designed our new house and are anxiously awaiting the official start of construction
• We took a big family trip to Disney World (the HAPPIEST place on earth!) with my parents and in-laws. My brother and his family even got to meet us for a few days of the trip
• My practice secured a new office and went through the process of designing the newer, larger space - I finally will get my own private office and exam rooms that are all mine!
• We got to spend a lot of time with family at home and on the road (Florida, Cape Cod, Saranac Lake, Lake Sacandaga)
• My husband's gauge of a good year...we got to see Phish multiple times
• My husband and I celebrated our 7th wedding anniversary and a few days later the 15th anniversary of our first date 

What I learned most this past year is PATIENCE. Patience in selling our house. Patience in making progress on a new office, new schedule, and new salary. Patience in taking care of two kids with extremely different, but equally important needs. Patience in working through nightmares and fussy toddlers at 2am. Patience in balancing my roles as mommy, wife, sister, daughter, and doctor. Patience in remodeling my self image. The more I struggled to *make* things happen the more frustrated, stressed, and unhappy I found myself. 

I am hoping 2014 will find me learning from my mistakes, letting go of the things I can not change, and fully appreciating all of the awesomeness that already is a part of my life.

101 Dalmatians Baby Shower

I can't believe that my sister's baby shower was FIVE months ago or that it's taken me this long to share her party with you. Honestly, I started thinking about what type of shower I wanted to throw before she was even pregnant. As she's a teacher, my initial inclination was to plan a Dr. Seuss themed party and I even started pinning all sorts of food and decorating ideas.

Then, she found out she was having a boy. I knew a small part of her was secretly hoping she would have a girl because all of her nursery ideas were girly and she seemed really upset about the "boy" options. I started looking around and stumbled across this set.

My sister was extremely attached to a Pongo stuffed animal her whole childhood so I knew she would fall in love with it. Of course, I was totally right. I decided to embrace the dalmatian vibe and carry the theme over into the shower.

At first, I was a bit frustrated because it was much harder to find inspiration for a dalmatian party. There are tons of Dr. Seuss baby showers splattered across the internet, but very few featuring dalmatians. Many of the ideas you'll see below were completely my own after hours of brainstorming. In the end, I was SO GLAD that I made the change. I loved the decorations and food choices that my mom and I came up with and thought the party was a super sweet way to celebrate my sister and my soon-to-arrive nephew.

Be Our Guest
I found the idea for my invitations on Etsy and really wanted to just order them and let someone else do the work. Unfortunately the creator closed her shop and was not taking orders. This resulted in me spending HOURS re-creating the idea in paint and powerpoint programs. Once I was satisfied with my work, I ordered the invites from Vistapint. I was ecstatic with the outcome, they looked great! I used the same fonts and colors to create stickers for the favors.

Front

Back

Sticker for favors

Food
101 Dalmatians takes place in England, so my idea was for the main course of the meal to be like an afternoon tea with small sandwiches, salads, chips in fancy paper cones, and a pitcher of citrus brewed tea. For appetizers I went with multiple "puppy chow" mixes and a "dalmatian" cheese ball with crackers and veggie sticks. Finally, I created a dessert table with a 6 layer dalmatian cake, dipped oreos decorated to match the theme, and sugar cookies shaped like bones that were individually wrapped as favors.

Cookies and Cream Puppy Chow

Red Velvet Puppy Chow

Chex Mix

Snacks served in dog food bowls from the Dollar Tree

Lunch Buffet

Finger sandwiches featuring turkey and bacon, ham and cheese, tuna salad, chicken salad, and vegetarian hummus pitas with mayo, mustard, and pickles on the side 

Chips in paper cones (I LOVE paper cones...)

More chips

Baby greens salad, fruit salad, and pasta salad

Missing from photos was one of the foods I was most "proud of" as it was my own original idea - a white cheese ball (mixture of cream cheese, white cheddar, and ranch dressing mix) with sliced olives pressed into it to look like dalmatian spots!

Homemade 6 layer cake - frosted in butter cream with black fondant spots

Slice of cake

Top: treat bags with red candy balls and kisses with custom stickers reading "Katrina's baby shower"
Middle: Cups of cookies and cream ("dalmatian") ice cream were served with the cake
Bottom: Bone shaped cookie favors

Close-up of the favors

Chocolate dipped oreos

Decor
As you can see, this party was all about the dalmatian doggies. I used dog bowls from the Dollar Tree for food, made centerpieces out of empty cans to look like "Kanine Krunchies" (the dog food advertised in the 101 Dalmatians movie), and put a copy of the 101 dalmatians book on each table. My mom went a little ebay crazy and purchased about 50 little dalmatian happy meal toys that we also used for table decorations and for a game.

Table decor

Another shot of the centerpiece and decorations on each table

We used one copy of the book as a guest book, the others were given as favors to any kids attending the party

I love dessert tables. I have an entire Pinterest board dedicated to different set-ups and ideas because I love them so much. For my sister's shower I had the idea to create a banner over my dessert table out of actual baby onesies instead of paper cut outs. I purchased 3-6 and 6-9 month size onesies in colors to match the party and used my Cricut to cut out the letters and circles.

Onesie banner with dalmatian print fabric backdrop and tissue paper border

Dessert Table Setup

Close-up of one of the onesies

My sister really seemed to enjoy the shower and I was so pleased with how all the planning turned out. Happily for us all her pregnancy ended with a planned c-section (due to my sister's pre-existing heart condition that needed monitoring) and I now have a beautiful, perfect nephew to celebrate the upcoming holidays with.

My sister and I
(baby bear was hanging out on my back while I bustled around setting up)

The Christmas Season is Here!

Last year I read some very funny, cheeky blog articles bashing Elf on the Shelf mommies for over-achieving. I laughed and admitted the absurdity of it all. I wouldn't be caught dead making flour footprints all over the floor or drawing mustaches on family photos and blaming it on our elf (Sugar). I did create a lot of work for myself with a 12 days to Christmas Countdown (examples here), but I tried to tell myself that was different...

Fast-forward to Sugar's arrival this year. She made her grand appearance on Thanksgiving day when she turned up in our car while we were having dinner with my family. The next morning she was slyly observing us from the wreath hanging on our coat closet...

November 29th - Hiding in the wreath

I was looking for something fun to do with the girls when I picked them up from daycare/K-prep on Friday and remembered that last year I never took the extra step to buy our girl elf one of the sweet little skirts they sell for them. I suggested going to look for one when my extremely bright little bug suggested that we could MAKE her a skirt instead. We headed off to Hobby Lobby and purchased a piece of felt that I quickly and easily turned into an Elf skirt. The bug was so excited last night to leave the skirt out with a note she dictated to me and then signed. 

This morning Sugar was proudly wearing her new skirt and the bug was thrilled. I'm hoping I can stick to simply moving her around for a few weeks without any major hi-jinx or projects to undertake...

November 30th - Hanging out in her new skirt on top of the light in the dining room

Giving Thanks...

No long dramatic explanations of my absence - I've been busy, that's it. Plain and simple. What matters is that I'm baaaaack. I figured I would kick off my return with a list of things I'm thankful for. I wanted to participate in the "one a day" on Facebook, but with throwing baby bear's 1st birthday party (pictures to come) and a 10 day vacation in Disney (so many tips, reviews, and recommendations to be shared), I never got started. Better late than never, right? So here are 28 things - some are sillier than others - I am thankful for (in no particular order):

1. Healthy kids. OK, so my oldest has strep right now, but in the grand scheme my kids are super, duper healthy and I am so thankful.
2. A great career. I love going to work. I love helping kids and families. I am always learning new things. It's amazing.
3. My husband. We have been together forever and are still so perfectly on the same page. We compliment each other in all the right ways.
4. JK Rowling. I don't care if this is ridiculous to some. Harry Potter makes me feel like magic and love and goodness are alive and real. I will continue to read these books over and over and I will love every second of it. 
5. My older daughter. This little girl amazes me every single day. She is smart, insightful, compassionate, beautiful and a bit insane. She makes me laugh and she turns my hair gray.
6. My baby. She is so full of energy and curiosity. Her smile and snuggles melt my heart.
7. My parents. I had my complaints about my parents growing up (who didn't??). Especially Dad; he had no clue how to relate to a teenage girl. As an adult I can really appreciate the struggles they went through raising two kids on a really tight budget and am so thankful to have had them. Even more, I am thankful to still have them here to love and support me, my husband, and my girls.
8. My cats. Having a pet is such a great way to enrich your life and I am thankful to have such mild mannered and lovable cats.
9. My in-laws. First, I am thankful to them for raising my husband and setting such a good example of a successful marriage and supportive parenting. Second, I am thankful for how they have accepted me as part of their family and are always there for all of us.
10. My sister. She drives me CRAZY often, but I love her so much. My life wouldn't be the same without her.
11. My patients. I am so thankful to have families in my practice that trust my judgement. They inspire me to keep learning and to be a better doctor every day.
12. High school friends. Some have gracefully exited my everyday life, but I would happily welcome them back at any time. Some have become even closer friends since graduation day as our lives have taken on more parallel paths in adulthood. Some I am glad to have in my past (and would like for them to stay there). All of them played a role in creating the person I became and I am therefore grateful to them regardless of which category they fit into.
13. My co-workers. As much as I love what I do, "work" wouldn't be nearly as fun without the fabulous nurses, staff, and other providers I get to spend my days with. They make me laugh and help me provide the best care possible for my patients - a winning combo!
14. My education. I worked super hard to get into the schools that I went to (Boston College and Albany Medical College), but I am still grateful to all of the great professors and doctors that helped me become who I am today. A good higher education isn't a right, it's a privilege. 
15. Libraries. I love the smell of libraries and the feeling of being surrounded by books. I wish I had more time to read my way through the library.
16. My best friend. She knows who she is. I want to talk to her about good things, bad things, funny things, crazy oh-my-god-can-you-believe-it things, and totally mundane everyday things. I am so grateful for her.
17. My Cricut machine. I can make SO MANY awesome party decorations with this thing. 
18. Coffee. Coffee has been there with me through overnight calls, to reconnect with old friends, to get me through a rough day of motherhood, and to share with my husband in the morning as we get ready for another crazy day.
19. My cousins (including my husband's cousins). Some of them played a huge role in my childhood and some have become more prominent players in recent years, but I am thankful to all of them for love, laughs, support, and fun.
20. Grandparents. All of my grandparents have passed away and only my husband's paternal grandmother is still alive and well. Sometimes I feel it's important to remember how important they all have been in creating the family and traditions that are easily taken for granted.
21. Pediatric Oncologists. The small amount of time I spent caring for pediatric cancer patients during my residency was heart-breaking and life changing for me. I would not have the strength to do what these oncologists do for patients and families day after day and am so thankful for the men and women who can.
22. Local businesses. From small shop owners to farmers I am grateful to these men and women who are trying to offer higher-quality. locally sourced goods that are good for the community and good for my family.
23. To live where I live. I am not often overly "patriotic", but I am thankful to live in a place where we have many liberties and are safe on a daily basis. More specifically, I am thankful to live in the Northeast where we have 4 distinct seasons and easy access to mountain escapes and sandy beaches.
24. Home. This has special meaning for me this year as we just sold our house and are in a very small apartment. Home isn't the place, it's the love and the people in it. I am so thankful that although I don't have a house this year, I certainly have a home.
25. Disney World. I don't care that it's commercial and overpriced. It's also magical and I can't wait to go back.
26. Aunts and Uncles. Just like cousins some of them were more prominent players when I was younger and helped shape who I am, and some are bigger influences now in my adult world.
27. Good food. I love to cook and love, even more, to eat. I am thankful to live in a place with access to so many wonderful, delicious, and healthful things to eat.
28. Healthy family. Working in medicine I am constantly confronted with the ways our health can be threatened - infection, trauma, mutation, and dysfunction. Although many people in the family have (or have had) different conditions that affect their lives, everyone is well enough to get around and do the things they want to do. This is the biggest blessing and the thing I am most grateful for each and every day.

Sleep Deprived

I really should be on a treadmill right now preparing for the 5K (my first ever) I am running tomorrow. Clearly, that is not the case. Instead, I'm using the three hours I've been up (thanks baby bear, thanks a lot) to place orders on Vistaprint, browse Pinterest and pin a few dozen more pumpkin recipes I won't have time to actually bake, make strange obsessive party lists for baby bear's upcoming first birthday party, and (duh) post here. Unless I leave the house (and then I would have to go to the gym, and I'm obviously trying to avoid that), this is really all I can do.

As all of my "work space" (living room and kitchen) is so close to the bedrooms I will wake the monsters if I do much else I've been contemplating whether I can get away with brewing a cup of coffee for the last 60 minutes and have, thus far, decided against it. I am enjoying this little tiny bit of peace and responsibility free time too much to risk disrupting it.

I've annoyingly and repeatedly pointed out recently mentioned a few times that things are busy around here. Guess what? It got SO MUCH busier in the past week. Here's the breakdown:

• The situation with the monster children is no different - the bug is still sweet 50% of the time and an irrational, maddeningly defiant creature the other 50% of the time and the bear is a wonderful baby with the exceptions that she rarely sleeps through the night and tries to aspirate small objects at least a dozen times a day.
• Also on the family front, my little sister had her baby (I'm in love!) and I'm trying to make time to see him as often as I can because he is growing so fast already! 
• Work continues to get busier by the day as we enter cold and flu season. As soon as the kids go back to school the office visits for congestion, sore throat, pink eye, etc pick up.
• And the ongoing house selling process! The good news about the house is that I can finally stop cleaning 24/7 because we have a buyer, but the bad news is that they want a fast closing and (pending the official closing date from the bank) we need to be out by the end of the month.
• As I eluded to above, baby bear's first birthday is fast approaching and I am also planning her party. I had already agreed to scale back my usual party planning/crafting/cooking, but it's getting even more scaled back now. This makes me sad.
• Finally, our Disney vacation is fast approaching and all I can hope for is that the warm weather clothing makes it with us through the move and we can find it when I need to pack.

So while much of this increased business is due to GOOD things, it's still insane. Even though I am SO tired, I can barely fall asleep at night because my head is so packed with plans, ideas, and concerns. Last night my husband and I drank a bottle of champagne to celebrate the house selling process and it was the first time in weeks I've fallen asleep effortlessly. Of course, I've been up since 4 am because the baby bear wouldn't want to let me get in a full 8 hours...

Real Food Update and Drink Recipes

My sweet baby bear helping me unpack our goodies from the Farmer's Market last weekend

You've heard me talk a lot about real food lately, but I have to admit that my commitment to the cause waxes and wanes depending on how crazy life is. In general, I'd like to think we've made a lot of progress. We haven't purchased milk or eggs that weren't local in a long time and have far fewer processed junk foods in the house. My husband and kid are still consumers of processed beverages, but I've cut down my Diet Pepsi consumption from 2 (or more!) cans per day to a can or two per week and replaced it with home brewed iced teas and carbonated water that I make with my SodaStream. Our dinners have been well rounded and include lots of fresh local fruits and veggies.

BUT, we still aren't there yet. We tend to fall short during all the in-between times. When the girls and I are out running errands and it's close to meal time...when I miss lunch and am starving as I drive home...when we're all stressed and craving comfort food. It's SO easy to give in and stop at a drive-thru. I pretended I'm still doing a good job by avoiding McDonald's/Taco Bell/Wendy's and only giving in to Dunkin' Donuts and Starbucks. Today I'm publicly calling myself out; it's not good enough! 

For the next month (until my Mud Run on October 5th!) I am pledging myself to avoid all fast food. No more iced coffee. No more wake-up wraps. No more cake pops. None of it. I'll let you know how it goes...

If anyone else wants to join me on the real food journey, here are a few simple real food drink recipes you should definitely try out!

Watermelon Mint infused Water

Add 6 oz cubed watermelon and one sprig of mint to a pitcher and fill with water.
Allow to infuse in the fridge for at least 2 hours.

Brewed Peach Iced Tea

Slice 4 very ripe peaches. 

Boil 6 cups of water in a saucepan. 

Remove from the heat and add 6 black tea bags. Infuse covered for 5 minutes.

Take out the tea bags and add the sliced peaches. Allow to infuse for 10-15 minutes.

Using a potato masher, squash the the peaches into pulp.

Rest the mixture for 5 minutes.

Strain the tea through a fine mesh sieve into a pitcher and chill.

*If it is too strong for you, add a little bit more water to the pitcher*

Brown Butter and Sea Salt Chocolate Chip Cookies filled with Nutella

Brown butter is, in a single word, amazing. It's my new obsession. I am in love with everything from the mild, nutty scent that wafts from the saucepan as it cooks to the rich, almost caramel flavor it lends to a cookie baked with it. I am featuring the recipe for nutella stuffed cookies in this post, but these chocolate chip oatmeal cookies with brown butter that I made for dessert last week got rave reviews as well.

If you've never had a cookie made with brown butter you can't possibly understand what you are missing. Please, do yourself a favor and make a batch (or two) of these cookies...

I'm not going to over-complicate this post and distract you from the task at hand (baking these cookies ASAP). Go visit Ambitious Kitchen for the full recipe and a great photo pictorial on how to add the nutella.

Disclaimer: My cookies spread a lot more than her's did. I definitely did the full two hours (a little longer) chill time in the fridge and even froze the stuffed dough disks for an extra 10 minutes after the first batch spread and it didn't make a difference. They might have spread because I used white whole wheat flour (I no longer purchase refined white flour) or replaced the white sugar with raw turbinado sugar. Honestly, this whole discussion can be ignored because it did not matter one teeny, tiny bit that they spread. They still were so delicious I wish I was eating one right now...but I can't...because my husband ate the last three hours ago...

If you give a mom a blog...

...she's going to write about her kids and her crazy life.

It's now 9 am. I've been up for over three hours. That's the downside when the baby bear decides to sleep through the night; she wakes up between 5:30 and 6:30 am and is UP for the day. This morning was particularly fabulous because the bug heard me come in to get the baby and was up as well.

The first chore of the day is always nursing and changing the baby. Today I had to do everything with the bug thisclosetome because she was still tired. They were both in a good enough mood though, so I won't complain. I dumped out a bunch of blocks and they built towers while I made their beds and attempted to make myself a cup of coffee (I say attempted because it was at least an hour later before I drank any of it...). This only lasted for about 15 minutes until the bear started roaring for breakfast.

Around this time Daddy decided to make an appearance (I'm pretty sure he was awake listening to us and deciding how long he could use his i-phone and pretend to be asleep...). The next 40 minutes was spent trying to cook breakfast while simultaneously keeping something on the bear's highchair tray so she didn't LOSE HER MIND waiting for the scrambled eggs I was attempting to make. We went through at least a half dozen clementines, a handful of puffed rice cereal, two slices of baked ham, and a few small slices of organic multi-grain bread before the "real" breakfast made it to the table.

By the time I fixed my coffee (now on ice) and a poached egg for myself, the baby bear was LOSING HER MIND because she was bored with eating a little bit of everything in the kitchen and wanted OUT of the highchair. Daddy and the bug were sitting among the breakfast wreckage looking at pictures of ridiculous animals on the computer and the bug was laughing maniacally and declaring, "Show it to Mommy!" every ten seconds or so.

My breakfast view. Not pictured: bear throwing scrambled eggs into the air by the fistful to my left

Then we cleaned the kitchen (Daddy helped!) and I dressed the bear while the bug went upstairs to play. The bug is still in her jammies, but I'm not ready for that fight yet. Then, a miracle occurred. Both kids went into the playroom and are having fun WITHOUT crying or asking for anything! The bear is in her jumper and squealing delightedly at her sister while the bug is setting up all sorts of crazy make-believe scenarios. I know I am going to have a massive mess to clean later, but I do not care in the slightest. It's quiet and I am enjoying it!

And now I get to the point of this post and where the title came from. I'm planning to throw the bear an "If you give a mouse a cookie..." first birthday party. When I was browsing the internet looking for inspiration I found this silly and appropriate poem another blogger wrote called "If You Give A Mom A Muffin." I told my husband I was going to write "If You Give A Dad A Donut." And this is what we came up with...

If you give a dad a donut,

he'll sit down at the computer and eat it.

He won't notice the baby's stinky diaper,

or the four year old emptying mommy's purse,

or mommy trying to cook breakfast and do laundry and make the beds.

Instead, he'll find a thread about donuts on Reddit.

And chances are,

if he sees a thread about donuts,

he's going to eat another donut.

Mommy and Me Day

Between the ages of 4 months and 2 1/2 years my bug attended daycare five days a week because my husband and I were both working full time. It was something we had to do and it was fine. When I graduated residency in 2011 there was nearly a three month delay before I could start my new job and my bug stayed home with me - we had many ups and downs, but overall it was a welcome change from the hectic days of my training. From December 2011 until this past week my bug has been going to daycare/preschool three days per week and spending one full day and one half day with me. We've done lazy things (watched movies and took naps), creative things (painting and baking), adventurous things (day trips and nature walks), academic things (reading and writing), and boring things (appointments and errands), but we did them together.

This coming week my husband and I made the decision to put her back in a full time program to prepare for kindergarten next year. Part (most?) of me knows this is the right thing to do. She will definitely benefit academically by being in the classroom every day and I am looking forward to having some alone time to be with the baby bear - I took a very short maternity leave and have had very little time with the baby alone. The other part of me is grieving for my bug's rapidly progressing childhood. She's steadily growing up...and away. It is just as it should be, but it still is a little gut wrenching.

I don't regret the way things have been. I actually think we've done a decent job making memories and doing special things together no matter what our schedules were. And, I feel confident we will keep working hard to appreciate our time together. As a celebration of our past and future "mommy and me" time, I took the day off on Friday and took the bug out for the afternoon.

We declared it "her day!" and she got to call the shots. I picked her up from summer camp and told her I would take her out to lunch for anything she wanted, even if it was "junk food." As you can see, she took full advantage of my offer...

Cheese Pizza and Pink Lemonade!

When the NYS museum was open on Mondays (our full day together) we went at least once a month. Then they changed their hours and we really haven't been able to go much. She has been asking me to take her, so that was next on our agenda. As it was gorgeous out, we decided to take a walk around the Plaza before heading into the museum.

Post-pizza, pre-duck chasing pose

Our museum protocol: Carousel, exhibits, carousel

After a few hours at the museum it was nearly time to head home (the baby is still nursing and I was nearing 5 hours without feeding or pumping...), but I promised her one last treat before we came back to reality. After reviewing the options, she asked for soft serve ice cream...

It's definitely not "real food" when you order it by color instead of flavor, but it made her happy...

I'm still a little sad that she won't be with me on my days off, but I think we had a very joyful and special afternoon together to cap off the past two years.